Shortly before Christmas I unexpectedly found myself sitting in a hospital (Antakalnio ligoninė). It all happened – J waking up in excruciating pain, being taken to hospital, undergoing emergency surgery, sitting up in bed playing Candy Crush – with bewildering and remarkable speed. I went with G to visit her in the evening, soon after…… Continue reading R.I.P.


Never have I felt this sad around Christmas. My aching heart woke me up at 5:10am. Boom, boom, boom, it thumped (my heart pumps dejection through me at a rate of 70 aches per minute). I have always loved Christmas. It was the one celebration that really meant something to me. Birthdays are cruel annual…… Continue reading Closed


This is a thankless endeavour. Not a peep, not a whisper. It’s a game of hide and seek gone wrong, or I Spy with no I and nothing spied. What madness compels me to keep doing it? This doesn’t exist without you, who remain indifferent. It is a conundrum, a quandary, a pickle: I don’t…… Continue reading Review